Shattercity

I’ve been feeling very stuck in my transition. Like I’ve hit a wall. Everyone tells me I shouldn’t get FFS. Yet, I want it for myself. I want to look in the mirror and see the girl in my head. Or at least a better representation of her. I’m grateful that I pass with estrogen, yet that isn’t enough for me. I want to fix my jawline, nose, and forehead. So I’ve applied for a consultation with a surgeon. Hopefully I get an appointment that is soon. 

The one problem I see with this is that I am a hostess. I can’t go to work looking like I was just in an accident all bandaged up. So I will most likely have to quit if I do this. Though, I have to first save up the money to do this. So it will be after a couple of months of working there, and by then I will hopefully leave on good terms with them and they can be a great reference for me when I find a new job. Its not like I was planning on staying at this restaurant for very long anyways. One of my bosses has a quick temper.

Sorry that I haven’t really been updating these past couple of months.